I’m dealing with the same thing as you. But I try and think of it differently…I do not know if I am right or wrong to do this. But, I love the Church too much to stay away. It isn’t our fault that we are not welcomed fully, why should we have to pay the price? I don’t consider it lying as much as keeping the full truth to myself.. I always try not to actually speak a lie but rather remain completely silent on this topic..