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    Isaac
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    Im still not Orthodox as I am meeting with the priest. However, I am starting to notice changes in my own life such as what aspects of my life I need to work on, being more aware of my actions and words, trying to forgive those who have slandered me.

    Sometimes, I am full of doubts, fears, pride, etc. I ask myself if I’ll be able to make it. I realize that we are all in need of God’s healing. Praying is the only thing that brings me comfort. I recently read about the martyrs in the Middle East. I am frightened as I don’t want to be governed by hatred, greed, etc. I am not making a victim out of myself but this is just what Im feeling at the moment. I do feel solace in God and the teachings of Jesus and his saints. I ask myself “will I I be able to do it? can I do it? is it possible?” It’s scary…sometimes I feel as if I don’t know what I’m doing, going through the wilderness of the world.

    This isnt really a question but more of a reflection.

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    James
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    Hi Isaac,

    Thanks for your honest post. I don’t think your feelings are unique; I’d wager everyone who begins turning their gaze on themselves as they set out on the spiritual journey feels more or less as you do. We stumble — but we get back up again and move forward. And if we’re in the right company, there will be others to accept us where we are on our journey, help us back on our feet and point us in the right direction so we can move forward.

    One aspect of the Orthodox Church, or at least the one I’ve been attending, that I really like is that it’s not a group of faultless saints but a community of fallible people, all striving to polish their rough edges as best they can. This is as true of the priests as it is of the rest of us. That’s why we offer each other our prayers and our support.

    James

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    James
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    This video from the Be the Bee series might fit in here:

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    Joe
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    Hmmmm… Sounds pretty normal and un-wierd to me… Besides, ’tis the season for self-examination… You are SOOO not alone… If you need a “Odox is The (correct) Church” booster-shot, just go to any one of those other churches for “Easter” this April 5th (Palm Sunday for Odox this year… Btw,I am the family cook, and I’m having a very hard time to coordinate a menu for one family with two religions that celebrate the same holidays on different days! But what a blessing it is to care enough to try!) You will be so grossed out by what you see (or, if you’re at a Protestant church, what you DON’T see) that you’ll forget about all your doubts and just say, “Lord J.C., S. Of G., the only one who ever conquered death, have mercy on me a sinner!”

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    Joe
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    If we didn’t have doubts, we would be very bad Christians. Test everything! Weigh it all against God’s truth, and if it falls one millimeter short of what you know to be true, reject it as fast as you can. Never stop questioning or demanding explanations… The disciples almost never stopped asking our Lord questions, and some of those questions seem downright silly to us “Mods”, but Christ will always provide the perfect answer, if we really want the answer… Do not fear, rejoice!

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    Joe
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    And oh yeah, “some gay stuff, blah blah blah”… (I always forget that this is a “gay” website, so…) I like gay people so much, I married one!
    Smile Issac! Remember the Good Shepherd.. He’ll never stop seeking you… He wants YOU!

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    Joe
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    Dear Isaac,
    I have been feeling like we have a lot in common, but then I think, (and I hope I am saying this correctly, with utmost sincerity, and without seeming stuck-up or aloof) that the main reason I like this particular site (blog? Forum? Back-and-forth electro-chatter? I don’t really know the right computer lingo… I’m scared of Facebook!) is because I have no idea what you look like, how old you are, where you live, if your Mama really named you Isaac, or even if you have XY or XX chromosomes… and there is absolutely no need for me (or anyone else) to know these things when we (you and I, Maria, and the other folks on this place) are trying our best to talk about The Most High without being crass or whiny or self-pitying, etc.
    I am a human too… I’m not overly well educated and I live in a small redneck town in ‘other-than-California’, USA. I’m a real guy, not some computer weirdo.
    I have an old disgusting ca.1977 protestant flea-market ‘sign’ complete with badly painted pansy-flowers in a broken plastic-brass frame hanging behind my toilet… Its hideous… But I put it there (long before I knew the better way to ‘wake up praying’) so it would be the first thing I saw/read in the ‘morning’.
    The terrible goopy cursive handwriting on it says, (Psalm 118:24) “This is the day The Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it…”
    It’s soooooo ‘Baptist Sunday School/pop-Christian’, but it’s a very good verse to read while doing what every human does shortly after waking, and even though my morning pee sign is nasty looking, I leave it there, because it says the truth.

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